I ve packed and got he house ready for the baby sitters and now i feel really tired. I fel a bit nervous too. I feel nervous about the journey and hope that hubby will be supportive should i get over nervous. I do just feel like crying at this point in time. maybe its all the exxcitement and nerves coming out. I must also add for the record that i did tn get any help packing and i had to organise the house sitter and food for the week as well as book it. Its again the time when i get nervous m y anger gets aimed at hubby. just like his anger is at me when he is stressd.
Th e diference is however that I should be helped in these tasks and e stress is nothing to do with me.Im feeling like a vunerable child agagin as the time to leave approaches and i feel nervous and short of breath too.
Thers lots going on around me and to be honest i suppose my tiredness is down to me nerves more than the amount of energy i have.#
I am looking forward to the hol but not the journey and just want a huggle from hubby when i feel like crying really, i ll go ask him for a hug in a min.
This is also the first week away since i been free from my worries and in its self is also a new thing to experience. I ll just take thing as they come and not expect too much . even now i m sat here wishing i cant wait to get back. Get back to being in control maybe and in comtrol of my feelings maybe.
Well i ve no more worries and it will be fine, theres absolutelty nothing to worrry about at all and i am allowed to enjoy myself and have fun and just do nothing an we can stop when we want , we can even come home when we want. I know where we are going and love it where we are going too.
Well i gotta go.
byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
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