So I've done it put the last piece in the puzzle. My hubbies actions, unknowingly toward me pushed me into the dark last year. and last night i could feel myslef withdraw into the prison of depression again.
MY Counsellor has helped me free my mind so i can think and i started to reason and say im not going to let this happen again, i can see it and talk about it and reason with it. his comments are not going to push me back.
I never argue back when he s shoutng the odds, i usually withdrwal and my mind goes into over drive thinking about what he s said and then i ask for an apology. but its too late by then the nasty words have already come out of his mouth.
This morning he made me a cup of tea and said sorry and he will come ofo the tablets . He could se that he upset me. ast night was diffferent though In my mind i siad i had enough and phone my friend. he knew he pushed me too far.
Today i'm going to wrte him a letter explianing all that ive written here and today for me is a new dawn!!!!!!!!!!!Yippeeeeeeee