my hubbie does nt like his work and at this time of year he is very stressed. He comfort eats and his gout flairs up. Coupled with his medication , which makes him spaced out. hubbie becomes short tempered and has a short fuse. paranoid and angry. He of course takes this out on me. Last year was the same. Last year his period of being aggressive was alot longer, for about six months. last year by mid summer, i had enough. the aftermath of which left my self esteem so low i had thoughts of suicide and put weight on and was very depressedand i suffer from excess acid, due to stress and IBS and everyone around me was having a pop at me, pull yourself together they d say, hubby went on hol on his own twice cause i was so low and started saying i dont do anything which reinforcd my thoughts about myself.
NOW THIS YEAR IM NOT GOING TO LET IT HAPPEN AGAIN. AFTER ALL WHERE IS HE AFTER HE S TAKEN EVERY INCH OF ME , HE S NOT THERE TO PICK ME UP ONLY TO BE MORE FRUSTRATED AND DO HIS OWN THING!
SO THIS YEAR ITS HAPPENING AGAIN, I CAN SEE IT !!!, MOOD SWINGS , PARANOIA, AGRESSIVE BEHAVIOUR TOWARD ME AND LITLE MAN, SPACED OUT , POOR MEMORY, SHOUTING, LOOKING RED AND ANXIOUS !. LAST NIGHT WAS IT ! I SAW EVERYTHING IN FORNT OF ME, THATS WHAT TRIGGERED MY DEPRESSION AND WITHDRAWL !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AND LAST NIGHT I SAID IT , I F HE HE DOESN T SORT HIMSELF OUT IM NOT GOING TO PUT UP WITH ANYMORE !
WHAT A RELIEF, I CAN NOW SEE THE WOOD FOR THE TRESS, MY INITIAL DIMISE THAT SEEM TO BE HOLDING ME BACK, THE FINAL PIECE OF THE PUZZLE.