I read a piece in the sunday papers today, about couples who are divorced in marriage but still together. I think im on the fence as to say whether my own marriage is like this as there are issues etc that im not happy with. Its hard to maintain the level of togetherness you had in the bginnning during the lust stage unless of course your lucky. Life gets in the way and there becomes a point that all that you had togther or did together that attracted you to that person gets lost or taken for granted and not kept to. Blame bitterness or denial then takes over. Its bloody harde being married and now i ve realised that if i want my mariage to work then it s down to me to initate all that i want from it. To beging with anyway and also talk more. My trouble is that my goals have changed and i ve actually carried out my gaols and that was what binding us together. So to survive i can see thatsmae gaols will staed fast us together again and if we dont have goals then it wont . Sadly i do not fancy my husband, he did all the persuading adn chasing and his mannerisms i do find soemtimes horrifying and embarrasing and the way he teases peoples, which includes me and my son , so much so that it contnually upsets us. so there it is. cards have been dealt on the table.
People love him, he s a people person, says what hey want to hear and is a yes man but at home, he is lazy , he doesn t talk and wants me to be his mum.
I have noticed that since i ve become better in myself he is getting better and our roles as each otheres parents to each other will once agagin become friends ..
I will do my best, that is all one can do................wish me luck